Social anxiety is the fear of being judged and evaluated negatively by other people, leading to feelings of inadequacy, inferiority, self-consciousness, embarrassment, humiliation, and depression.
In some ways but in some ways I seek it out. So I have some sort of unconscious desire to feel socially anxious? idk.
In other news, a quick Google search reveals I have cancer, AIDS, won the lottery and can get a PhD by filling out a web form.