I am an incredibly imbalanced player and sometimes i get lost down one of the holes in my knowlege. The worst one is when i give away the initative for a higher income. Initiative means being on the attack and having lots of options for how to direct the game.
http://warlight.net/MultiPlayer?GameID=6336298 Quite an interesting game, i try a really difficult counter, mostly for fun. I spend the first half of the game with higher income and odin puts a lot of his early income advantage into SA which he doesnt take, so i have the advantage, and then odin clears me in wasted europe. Take a look at turn 9, i have higher income, bigger stack, slightly more safety in CA Vs Ant, and absolutely no idea what to do. As you can see in the game I just deploy all and go face first into ca. it doesnt work out well for me, at the time i surrender i have at best thrown away a strong positional advatnge. The stack in SA just balloons out of control, with no objective, and i fail to use it to achieve any strategy. What has happened is on turn 6 odin chose to sacrifice CA and SA in exchange for safety in europe and canada. I got a bigger income and stacks vs his initiative. in retorpsect i can see taht what i needed to do was mercilessly try to clear odin from sa/ca using guesses and tactics, but in the game i floundered because those are 2 things im really bad at, i refused to see that option. I had no way to predict him because he could go anywhere and do anything, he was not beholden to anything. Im not saying what odin did here was particularly good, he put himself in the position of having to chew through a huge amount of neutrals. But he did gain the initiatve by sacrificing income which is my kryptonite.
http://warlight.net/MultiPlayer?GameID=6088494 look at the start of turn 9. All game ive had higher income, and i managed to sequester Sze's stack in SA, so i have a great short term advantage, and i used it last turn to take russia (taking higher income in exchange for less initiative). Like last game, bigger income, bigger stacks, and sze has the initiative because he borders me in west russia. I then send a massive stack...towards ant? and start to take...north america? 2 blunders for sure, but i kinda knew that at the time. I was scared to have the game decided by guessing and tactics in russia because i think of myself as bad in those situations. You can see how i misplay, at first being super defensive (an attack of just 2 when i have a stack of 20), then guessing wrong, then going way too strong into one territory and almost not at all into the other.
individually these games illustrate how not to play in certain situations, but taken with a few other games you can see how a fear of my weaknesses has overtaken my desire to improve.