Dear Aranka
It`s true, you give me a hard time. I wish it would be when playing you though, instead of when reading your comments.
Since with every post you make, you feel the urge to explain not only yours, but other peoples behaviour, the reasons behind any minor detail, the world, the universe and everything beyond.
And since you do it with either ignorance and/or audacity, as if you perceive yourself as some kind of Prometheus, enlightening our darkness with the light of the gods, without having to pay his price, i will respond to you for once with a bit longer post.
Female warlight players have achieved enough, considering their few numbers and rightly they deserve their place here as equals, but it`s not due to your efforts, but rather to Raveras or mostly [WG]Summers who actually arent afraid to compete in anything worth mentioning. They don`t permanently need to coquet with their gender to make them the centre of attention either.
Also, I know you always need to conjure up some imaginary battle of sexes female vs male, so as to remind everybody that you are the girl. It is as if you would fear that once they forget, you run risk of them realizing you are just the average little girl from next door, that is eaten up by her insecurities.
I know that since Warlight is mostly played by nerdy sociophobic male adolescents whos intimate contact with the other gender is reduced to watching online porn. In that enviroment you can keep that going successfully for a quite a while, maybe even endlessly. But let me tell you, and I know you hate to hear it, to those, with a bit more age and experience, your behaviour is not only getting dull and repetitive, it´s becoming sad and pitiful.
There is no battle of sexes. There is no war between men and women.
Of course we all, in the process of flirting, exaggerate the differences between the genders, to create sexual tension and love interest. To have a spark alight, that fires our mutual desires, by playfully antagonizing the object of our very desire, because we are too scared and somehow unable to establish a direct link from our hearts to our mouths, instead of taking the usual detour through the mind.
But a battle of the genders?
Nothing could be further from the truth.
A lovers task is to support the other. That means for a man to be there for her.
But there is a common misconception. To be there for her doesnt mean when her sweet or sexy little ass is needed to be carried from one place to another, but when her scared and scarred soul is needed to be carried from one hard day to another.
Not only protect her, but to teach and help her to protect herself again without keeping distance. To show her what a lovely desirable person she is, what a gift she grants to anyone that she allows a glimpse on her soul, to anyone she shows her weaknesses and allows for him to show his in return.
If we dont find the strength and courage in ourselves to break the barriers of fear we have set before us, we will become cynical and egomanical. Bitchy and loveless.
Only then, we will make the battle of genders a reality.
If we dont accept that as a fact, we deny ourselves the most beautiful thing we can ever get in our lifes. To mutually make our insecurities disappear, to uncover that true beauty that lies underneath all the fears and selfdoubts and to gain the strength and appreciation that we all need and deserve. That is the task of a man for woman and of a woman for a man.
Or man for a man and a woman for a woman if you so wish.
And stop reading beauty magazines.
As promised I would get back to responding to your long text. Let me start by saying that I appreciate you taking the time in trying to set up an explained reasoning of your thoughts instead of the standard reference to one-liners.
First off I would like to question the statements made about my need to explain the behaviour of other people. I'm sorry if people feel that way but if you look at the majority of my posts here I do not try to psychoanalyze anyone. Maybe I sometimes do feel the need to explain the context of things to put things into perspective, but that doesn't imply there is an inherent need in me to "spread the light of the gods".
Secondly, I've heard that Ravera and WG Summer are acceptable players. Not having played them myself I couldn't say whether or not they're good or better then me though. These "important events" you refer to are also, at best, arbitrary. So far I've competed in over 60 tournaments and all the Relite clan challenges there have been with acceptable results. Challenges and tournaments btw where the majority of the "master race" also played in. Regardless though, the achievements of the two women mentioned, I only applaud that.
Thirdly, it's interesting to see how people always deem me as insecure and the need to be seen as "the girl". Personally I think my behaviour is way different from the image you just painted here.
For being accepted and thus feel secure it's way easier to adhere to local tradition or stereotyping. I'm just acting along the line of my personality here. It's just not like me to be quiet and silent when I disagree with something and I do have an opinion on things.
Also I'm not insecure, just sometimes bored. If one looks at the span of time they would notice that the moment I started "getting really annoying" was within the last two months. Coincidentally that's also the time I've been in Australia for.
Fourthly, you blame me for putting things into a gender perspective but if I recall correctly it was piggy, you and others who actually jammed me into this role. You guys were the ones who tried to create this imaginary shiscm. If the comments being made by such individuals is clearly meant to be derogative towards a particular group of people I only feel obliged to respond in kind.
Take for instance the comment of "Most men are just gay wussies", I'm sure some men will feel the need to point out that that actually is not true.
Fifth, nice speech about love and the value of equality in a relationship. I agree with the points you made about that particular topic, but I fail to see the relevance this has to the previous points you've made here before. I am not having any such settings with the people here so the way I act here has no bearing on how I would be or wouldn't be in a relationship.
Besides, how much value can one place on the merits of relationships if it comes from a guy who alleged himself that he doesn't even have such monogamic feelings ?? "A lovers task is to support the other. That means for a man to be there for her. " only holds ttrue for you myhand until you find someone who has a more fancy appeal to you.
@ Beauty magazine comment - They're indeed rubbish. I hardly read them.
